Lonely

hurm~

aq lonely kew??

ye kew?

so,in 

DENIAL!

oky.

so.

today aq bce blog

my BESTIES <3

guess wut?

most of them

r

dealing wit

LONELINESS.

from

the absence of a 

'GUY'!

err??

hehe.diz is a normal thing kn?. i mean believe it or not i'd faced d same thing a lot earlier than them.except.dat im over it now. THANK GOD!

so,here's d thing.my besties n i came from a girl school.

u might ask. So,wHAt?! well, LISTEN! 

our school lyfe rockZ! not surrounded wit boys. n dun evn care bot them.

coz we had each other.

our GIRLFRIENDS!

huh!

it all seems so easy back then. coz we noe dat we r frenz n wutever kindness n hopes we gave r true n coz we r d same gender it limits our relationship to just as

'FRIENDS'

no other hidden agenda.

'JUZ FRENZ'.

now,dat we r out of dat GIRLFRIENDS tribe.

life says:

COME FACE THE REAL WORLD BABY!

so,here comes campus life.

A.W.E.S.O.M.E.

in the beginning. evrytin seems so fine~

everyone were juz frenz.

BOYZ n GIRLZ

Just Friends.

Nothing More.

BUT

as tym passed.

diz feelings begin to

EVOLVE.

from juz bein frenz to wanting

more than frenz.

SUCKZ.isn't it?!

evrytin he did.

evrytin he said.

u remembered it all.

your heart says:

"I ThiNk He LiKeS mE!"

REALLY?

BULLSHIT!

sory, a bit harsh.

u rely lyke him don't u?

u want him dun u? 

but somehow

u juz can't.

u hate it.

REALLY

REALLY 

REALLY 

hate diz feelings.

or

better yet~

U WANT HIM!

wen u r wit him.

u r happy.

u thought

he was givin u hope

ur heart melts~

BUT

little did u realised.

HE WAS JUZ BEIN A FREN

and

TREATING U LYKE ONE.

nothin more.

then,u'll get ol messed up

n

blamin him 4 givin u 

HOPE.

coz 4 once

u thought

u was sum1 special to him.

n now u realised

HOW WRONG DAT WAS!

WTH!

so,here's d deal girlfriends! these thngs happens coz u let it happened. u h8 it. u r miserable but deep inside u want it.u want to feel d pain.

SWEET!

Haha.diz is juz anothr phase of growing up dear besties. to mature ur feelings n learnin hw 2 cntrol them.but soon,when diz phase is OVER. u'll b able 2 thnk clearly again n u'll grow very tired of these SHITTY FEELINGS.u will. trust me. hehe.

so,in d process of goin through diz phase there's notin much dat u cn do than getin emotionaly involve wit ur feelins n immerse urself wit d pain.u chosed to interact wit dz feelins coz u noe evnthought it cause u misery n pain. in an odd way, u lyke it~

U WANT TO FEEL MISERABLE.

but lyk i said.u'll will get tired of it.

n datz is where u'll get to d point of maturity.

u'll looked back upon those miserable moments n thought 

"WHAT A TOTAL IDIOT"

i had been!

hehehe xD

so.girls juz go through diz wit patience.

it will end.

juz enjoy the pain til u can't feel it anymore!

BUT

dun do anything

RECKLESS n STUPID!

have DIGNITY oky!

enjoy je ler idop niyh kgkawan.bkn slalu nk dpt rse cmniyh.

hehehehe.

p/s:benda niyh pown aq tjukan buat diriku jua..hehe..LOL!