.life is just freakin awesome.

Monday, December 27, 2010

4 days more..

grr!! 4 ary lg dh ne blk cmpus!! 
hati ni 
RELUCTANT 
gler oky!!
assignment??
mampos! x siap lg!
oh god~
please tell me d holiday is still longer...
tp dok umah lme-lme...
BUHSAN le plak.
lg i tension u noe~
plg best ble bkk FAKEBOoK.
mmg INSPIRATIONAL gler r kn
membe2 kmpus aq!
smua dok mrekodkan prasaan x hingin mreka nk
pulang ke kampus trsyg uh.
ble bkk fon lak..
seko2 admit xnk blk lg.
perkh!
lg arh aq rse xnk blk dowh!
bwahahahaha!
i nk nek gler ni taw~
aAwwWW~
anyway.
i kn gler....
so, kmpus trsyg!
akn ku prepare diriku..
MENTALY n PHYSICALY!
DIZ IZ WAR PEOPLE!!
ngeE~
2011! here i come!
im REDY oky.
BRING IT ON, BABY!!

Diz is wut d lcturer will do to me n muh frenz:
 yela lcturer ku syg,.damage kn ler otk ktowg gn 
assgment byk2 lg yer~

diz iz wut will happen to us:
  diz is wut we wil be..
in other words:
CRAZzzyY!!
hehe.so muh fellas.letz face diz
insane 2011 wit 
fun n laugther!!
ROCK IT GIRLFRENDZ!!
YEAH!!

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

im alrite =)

hehe. trjumpa pic niyh kat google.
totaly agree wit d quote written there!

Lonely

hurm~
aq lonely kew??
ye kew?
so,in 
DENIAL!

oky.
so.
today aq bce blog
my BESTIES <3
guess wut?
most of them
r
dealing wit
LONELINESS.
from
the absence of a 
'GUY'!
err??

hehe.diz is a normal thing kn?. i mean believe it or not i'd faced d same thing a lot earlier than them.except.dat im over it now. THANK GOD!
so,here's d thing.my besties n i came from a girl school.
u might ask. So,wHAt?! well, LISTEN! 
our school lyfe rockZ! not surrounded wit boys. n dun evn care bot them.
coz we had each other.
our GIRLFRIENDS!
huh!
it all seems so easy back then. coz we noe dat we r frenz n wutever kindness n hopes we gave r true n coz we r d same gender it limits our relationship to just as
'FRIENDS'
no other hidden agenda.
'JUZ FRENZ'.
now,dat we r out of dat GIRLFRIENDS tribe.
life says:
COME FACE THE REAL WORLD BABY!
so,here comes campus life.
A.W.E.S.O.M.E.

in the beginning. evrytin seems so fine~
everyone were juz frenz.
BOYZ n GIRLZ
Just Friends.
Nothing More.

BUT
as tym passed.
diz feelings begin to
EVOLVE.
from juz bein frenz to wanting
more than frenz.
SUCKZ.isn't it?!
evrytin he did.
evrytin he said.
u remembered it all.
your heart says:
"I ThiNk He LiKeS mE!"
REALLY?
BULLSHIT!
sory, a bit harsh.
u rely lyke him don't u?
u want him dun u? 
but somehow
u juz can't.
u hate it.
REALLY
REALLY 
REALLY 
hate diz feelings.
or
better yet~
U WANT HIM!
wen u r wit him.
u r happy.
u thought
he was givin u hope
ur heart melts~
BUT
little did u realised.
HE WAS JUZ BEIN A FREN
and
TREATING U LYKE ONE.
nothin more.
then,u'll get ol messed up
n
blamin him 4 givin u 
HOPE.
coz 4 once
u thought
u was sum1 special to him.
n now u realised
HOW WRONG DAT WAS!
WTH!
so,here's d deal girlfriends! these thngs happens coz u let it happened. u h8 it. u r miserable but deep inside u want it.u want to feel d pain.
SWEET!
Haha.diz is juz anothr phase of growing up dear besties. to mature ur feelings n learnin hw 2 cntrol them.but soon,when diz phase is OVER. u'll b able 2 thnk clearly again n u'll grow very tired of these SHITTY FEELINGS.u will. trust me. hehe.
so,in d process of goin through diz phase there's notin much dat u cn do than getin emotionaly involve wit ur feelins n immerse urself wit d pain.u chosed to interact wit dz feelins coz u noe evnthought it cause u misery n pain. in an odd way, u lyke it~
U WANT TO FEEL MISERABLE.

but lyk i said.u'll will get tired of it.
n datz is where u'll get to d point of maturity.
u'll looked back upon those miserable moments n thought 
"WHAT A TOTAL IDIOT"
i had been!
hehehe xD
so.girls juz go through diz wit patience.
it will end.
juz enjoy the pain til u can't feel it anymore!
BUT
dun do anything
RECKLESS n STUPID!
have DIGNITY oky!
enjoy je ler idop niyh kgkawan.bkn slalu nk dpt rse cmniyh.
hehehehe.
p/s:benda niyh pown aq tjukan buat diriku jua..hehe..LOL! 
 

Monday, December 20, 2010

kenapa aku takot...

skali lg hati ini meronta. jauh yew ketenanagan meninggalkan diriku. ye! hati ini takot. takot dgn dunia yg x psti ini. tkot dgn prkara yg x dketahui. dgn ape yg bkl trjadi...

hati bertanya:
senyuman.
kemana ko mghilang?
kbahagiaan.
mengapa ko x brtndang di kala ini?
mengapa tiada jawapan!

apakah erti kbahagiaan buatku??
kekasih??
tidak.
keluarga??
mungkin.
sahabat??
aku x psti.
kejayaan??
............

wahai hati, tabahlah kamu di saat ini. rhsiakanlah kkosongan itu, smbunyikanlah kekalutanmu, dan pndamkanlah ksuyianmu. sbaliknya,hiaskanlah wajahmu dgn snyuman, riangkanlah dgn gelak tawamu, hadapilah dgn ceria dn doa. =)